"Love remains the same..."

-Gavin Rossdale

Last week Davis told his gymnastics teacher,
"My Mommy has a new baby in her belly."
Why would he say that? Well, because it's true!
Surprise!

And I say surprise because it was a surprise to us too. All of our other children have been planned pregnancies and to say that this was completely unexpected is an understatement. We're intelligent adults, we understand contraception, but I guess sometimes we don't get to choose :)

Also, one of the main reasons I'm letting you know it was a surprise is so when you see me and I look all haggard and Leah's hair isn't brushed and Grayson is still in his pajamas (which is exactly what we looked like when I had to take them with me to my visiting teaching appts last week!) you don't think, "and she thought she should have another one!" Okay, I know most people aren't that judgmental but seriously I already "have my hands full" as most people like to tell me :)

This is going to be a long post so I won't be offended if you don't read past here :)
Okay, I don't want to sound like a whiner but all the reasons why I wanted to wait to get pregnant are still true. Grayson's pregnancy was so hard and exhausting. It's so hard being pregnant and taking care of a toddler, especially for me and my aching back. Actually, that's one of the ways I knew I was pregnant my back hurt so bad! There are some days where by bedtime I can barely walk. It's not good considering my whole life involves bending and picking kids up. Also, as with Grayson's pregnancy, I have a subchorionic bleed so I have to keep going back to get ultrasounds to make sure it's not getting worse and the baby's still getting nourishment and growing. Worst case scenario is that it gets so big it causes the placenta to detach and that would cause a miscarriage. They're just monitoring it for now but it can be grounds for bed rest! I don't really know but I suspect this is why I'm just so tired too. Well, honestly I was tired before I got pregnant but now I feel like I have to have a nap. I'm so worried that overdoing anything will compromise the pregnancy it's hard to know where to draw the line. Oh my goodness I'm only 10 weeks, I still have a LONG way to go.

On a more positive note :) I'm going to have a baby! I love babies! And I think I'm more concerned about what the pregnancy will be like than actually having four kids. Is that weird? And now we're going to move into a bigger house, for reals this time :) We looked at houses last year this time but it just didn't feel right, but now I'm all for it! And the prices have dropped even since then so that's good. And we have a Cafe Rio here in town so I can actually satisfy that craving :) And the older kids are WAY excited, so much more than I expected them to be! It's kinda refreshing to see their excitement! And Jeff is being way understanding about my exhaustion and constant need for back massaging. Thank you Jeff, muah!

Funny things the kids have said since finding out I "have a baby in my belly":
- We told the kids over Christmas break and they were excited but later in the day Davis came over and said, "You're not kidding right!?" Maybe that's a sign that we tease too much :)
- Jeff had made eggs & bacon for breakfast and Leah told me, "You should feed the baby some bacon, it's good". She's so sweet already taking care of the new baby :)
- Davis told his gymnastics teacher, "My mom has a new baby in her belly." And the teacher teased, "Well, she should stop doing that." When we got in the van Davis asked, "Mom, why did she say that?" I tried to explain that she was just teasing because we have a lot of kids but he didn't think it was funny. He like the fact that I'm having a new baby!
- After I had my first ultrasound I was showing the kids the picture. Pointing to the head and the arms and Leah said, "And...what else?" She thought they could tell if the baby was a boy or girl already and she wanted to know NOW :)
- At Leah's birthday party Davis told me, "Mom your belly's already getting big. Is the baby going to come out soon?" Just wait Davis, you have no idea how big this belly's going to be :)